it was one of my longest nights last nights. i lay wide eyed looking at the ceiling and thinking of you. i grimace from pain just thinking how we couldn't be together when all that we know is be in love with each other. life is so unfair that way.

i was trying to imagine a world when we are free to love and live our the dreams of our hearts. it's a lot brighter, a lot happier, a lot more perfect....if only no one will get hurt.

but what about our own hurts? until when can we bear them? what is in store for two souls lost in love and forever wandering in the star-dusty skies of passion and uncertainty?

sometimes i am like Juliet tired and wanting to give up. sometimes i am romeo desperate to make things work and be with you no matter what the cost. sometimes i am the potion that you take thinking it will not separate you from your love and yet bring about your death...

i wish we know better than just being happy with each other...then again is there happiness outside of knowing you and being with you?