I want to forget everything. I want to keep away anything that could remind me of you. I wish I'll have amnesia. I wish I'll go mad. How can your past not hurt me? How can it not torture me in ways that you will never know? I want to run away where it could not haunt me, where even your present cannot find me. I want to run away where pain cannot reach me and abuse me some more.

There have been a lot of inconsistencies in the things you've been telling me...how could I trust you. And what will I profit from it anyway? I am falling so madly in love with you I'm getting out of control. I am panicking at the thought of it. I cannot stay this way. I have to get out. Before I lose my mind.