I wish there is a way where pains heal overnight. I have endured too many a long night, I can almost feel my heart fading. The more that you insist yourself on me, the more that I am scared to melt in your arms. The more that you promise me you would take care of me, the more that I think of the days when you failed to do it.

Yes, I love you. But I hate you just the same. For hurting me too much many times before that it has changed me forever. Now, I cannot turn away from you and I find it all too unfair. You’ve turned your back on me so easily, but now why couldn’t I do just the same?

Why could love justify everything so easily? It just doesn’t make sense.