Whenever you hold my face and look at me as if your whole life depended on my eyes, I come alive inside, so alive like a flower blooming to its fullest. If only I can freeze the moment and hold it in my heart forever. The more that I see you, the longer that I spend time with you, the more that I become so impatient to want to be with you all the time. There is so much in your loving me that makes me want to stay awake forever and feel you rushing through my veins. Breathing the air next to you becomes a privilege, a treat, a gift. There is so much about us being together that gives me hope that one day, indeed, our love will make everything possible.

But after each moment, after the fire has died down, after living the dream in fleeting moments, I go home lonely, with the gnawing emptiness inside. I am still broken. I am still hurting. I am still alone. and I would wake up in the middle of the night, crying… and never knowing why.